Transformations

If any of you hadn't noticed by now, I've changed my hair color! Yes, me, Mrs. Conservative, now has red highlights! I'm 30 years old. I've never done anything too drastic to my hair besides cut it short, and the only color I've had was a semipermanent black to make my hair shinier. You may ask what does coloring my hair have to do with losing weight? I guess you could say that I felt the need to go through a total transformation. You'd be suprised how a simple thing such as changing your hair color can boost your confidence. Even though I've lost a lot of weight, I still at times find myself walking around like I'm carrying a ton. It's hard to describe, but it is as if you are walking around in another person's body and you don't know how to handle it. Your mentality doesn't match your physique.

I've spent so many years trying to fake being confident, I really didn't know how to walk in confidence. You can buy spanx to hide your rolls and cellulite, but there is no hiding a permanant haircolor. It's funny, when I first got my hair colored I really liked it, my husband LOVED it! However, a couple of days later as I was getting ready to go to work, I started freaking out. I was styling my hair, and I just broke down crying. I woke my husband up repeatedly asking him, "Do I look okay? You don't think I look silly?". His response, which is so classic of him was, "You know I would tell you if you looked ridiculous", which he really would. When I got to work, I prayed that God would give me the confidence to walk as bold as my new hair color. I mean, you can't walk in a room holding your head down and you're rocking a color like red! So, I walked to the hospital floor, and everyone that hadn't seen my pic on facebook was indeed shocked but very complimentary. Well, if they didn't like it, would they really tell me anyway? So all I could do was trust that I made the right choice to color my hair. I really didn't plan on it turning out that color. I wanted kind of subtle light brown highlights. But, I'm glad it turned out this way.I think it was God's way of saying, no matter what the outcome, you are still beautiful in my eyes, and you've got to rock it like you own it,even if it turned out blue! I took a risk (which is opposite of what I normally do), and it worked for me.

This past week, I took it a step further and got contacts. Now, I love my glasses, I think they give me personality. Yet, I also think that I hide behind them. It was easy to hide for one, because I had lost so much weight they were starting to engulf my face. When I put the contacts on, it was a whole new world and I could really see myself. This has been a crazy journey! I really hadn't lost but a pound since my last blog, but I feel absolutely wonderful! Over the past month, I've handle dissappointments with prayer, and the moments I don't feel as confident, I take inventory of all the things I've accomplished over the last year. I'd take each little small risk over again to feel what I feel at this moment...

WEIGHT LOSS TO DATE: 63 lbs. Only 1 lb down, but my arms and legs are getting cut yall! Watch out there now! lol